I finally tossed my bullet journal after a month of blank pages

I mean, idk, maybe it's just me but I set up this whole fancy tracker for my habits. I even bought new pens and everything. But then I just never opened it, like not even once after the first week. Now it's just sitting there with empty boxes, and I feel guilty every time I see it. Why do I keep doing this when I know I won't stick with it? It's such a waste of money and time. I guess I'm just not cut out for all the pretty spreads people post online.