Sounds a bit dramatic for checking some gear.

Staying calm" is just doing the job you trained for.

Totally get that. Saw a video where an artist said the default round brush in most programs is basically the worst tool for line art. They switched to a basic pencil brush with some texture and it was like night and day. It makes sense, the right brush can add that subtle grit and weight that makes a drawing feel solid. My old sketches always looked too clean and digital until I messed with the brush settings.

Actually, I kind of like that shift. A funeral should fit the person, and some people lived really bright, happy lives. It feels more honest to celebrate that way sometimes.